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Step Forward!

Step Forward!

As this month is my birthday month, I am also taking a step towards a dream I’ve always had.

My Uplifted Spirit is migrating to a new site! http://www.janinapaula.com is now in the works and will be live soonest! Can’t wait!

“Push comfort zone out and you will be most fulfilled, because you will be doing more!” – Lynette Lewis

“Believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do.” – One Tree Hill

One Million March

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As the news said, it all started as a “shoutout” on Facebook in the middle of the much-talked about Billion-Peso Pork Barrel Scam in the Philippines. This “shoutout” got passed to a friend, then another friend and another friend, and before long, a date and venue was set for the MILLION PEOPLE MARCH.

 

August 26th is the Philippine National Heroes’ Day. It best fits the date of the rally as its participants, the tax payers, are all considered heroes of the country. The venue is in Luneta Park, a historical public park in the heart of Manila. The goal: to have a voice and be heard by the government for the following cries:

 

SCRAP PORK: Successive governments, including the incumbent, have failed to safeguard our interests by allowing and SUPPORTING all kinds of corruption in the pork barrel system. We, the taxpayers, are always told to be patient because the government lacks funds. Now we know why — our money, billions of pesos worth, have been siphoned off by the corrupt.

ACCOUNT FOR ALL SPENT PORK: If we truly want to rid the nation of corruption, we cannot focus only on one sector or one administration. There is no such thing as “unaccountable” power to spend OUR money.

INVESTIGATE AND PUNISH THOSE GUILTY OF ABUSING PORK. Scandal after scandal shows corruption involves private as well as public institutions and sprawls across all branches of the government. Enough. Everyone must be held accountable.

We acknowledge President Benigno Simeon Aquino III’s response to the people’s mounting anger. This is a positive sign. But “Pork” is not just PDAF. Pork means all modes of public spending that has little or no accountability. This includes the billions and billions of discretionary funds in all branches of government.

From: the Petition of Peachy Bretana via www.change.org

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People from all walks of life came to Luneta that day—mostly dressed in white. It was such a beautiful sight, and the weather cooperated well too—no sudden heavy rain, just small drizzles every now and then, and it was breezy. I took my time to breathe everything in—the tents and tables of different activities, people singing, some praying, the signages that each group carried, the smiles and hugs when each one sees someone they know. For a political rally, it was really peaceful, and I am glad. Looking at the individuals that came, these aren’t just groups transported by their respective LGU’s (it often happens that during a protest or rally, groups are being transported by some politicians to make the crowd appear thick, and the protest well-attended). These are actual TAX PAYERS. I saw doctors and nurses, businessmen and businesswomen, employees from the BPOs and various private sectors, priests, nuns, teachers, students. People who doesn’t just pay taxes with their salaries, but with their everyday expenses. Responsible citizens with real pains from the scandal that rocked the country for the past month.

With the Million People March came a campaign that needed 1 Million Signatures for the petition mentioned. My friends and I volunteered to get everyone to sign this petition, both online and on grounds during the event. 

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Theresians In Action. ❤ 

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Since they said this was a “leader-less” protest, various groups did their thing, whether it was praying, public speaking, chanting, dancing, playing musical instruments and singing. Using arts and music, different talents are used as VOICES to declare their piece. 

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My parents used to say that the EDSA Revolution (being the most peaceful revolution in the world!) is indeed something to be proud of as a Filipino. Now I know what they mean. Taking a stand, and doing my part as a Filipino really makes me proud and inspires me to be a better citizen. 

Image“Be the change you wish to see in the world.” 

 

 

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Simplify.

Simplify.

One of Nike’s Maxims is SIMPLIFY AND GO. 🙂

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Flipping to an UNWRITTEN Page

This song is the perfect companion when I’m feeling lost or uninspired. Works like a charm in reminding me of loving myself and who exactly I am at the moment, and that the best days that are yet to come!

Sharing this with you today, just in case you also need a track to brighten up your day!

Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield

I am unwritten, can’t read my mind, I’m undefined
I’m just beginning, the pen’s in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you,
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin

NO ONE ELSE CAN FEEL IT FOR YOU, ONLY YOU CAN LET IT IN,
NO ONE ELSE, NO ONE ELSE,
CAN SPEAK THE WORDS ON YOUR LIPS,
DRENCH YOURSELF IN WORDS UNSPOKEN,
LIVE YOUR LIFE WITH ARMS WIDE OPEN

TODAY IS WHERE YOUR BOOK BEGINS,
THE REST IS STILL UNWRITTEN

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We’ve been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can’t live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
THE REST IS STILL UNWRITTEN…

Even Just for Today….

Let whatever you do today be enough.

Let go of the judgement you have about what you should be or could be doing, and today, allow yourself to simply be.

Comparing yourself and your journey may be habitual, but it gets you nowhere. It makes you feel worse and keeps you stuck.

Stop fixating on where everyone else is, and start giving yourself permission to be exactly where you are.

Quiet the voice telling you to do more and be more, and trust that in this moment, who you are, where you are at and what you are doing is enough.

You will get where you need to be in your own time.

Until then, breathe. Breathe and be patient with yourself and your process.

You are doing your best you can to cope and survive amid your struggles, and that’s all you can ask of yourself. It is enough.

You are enough.

– Danielle Koepke

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3 Years Ago.

3 Years Ago.

Going through my old Tumblr account, I saw what I wrote a few years back. This was for someone I lost because of lies and betrayal.

“I thought about you today…

… And for the first time, it wasn’t about the tears and the pain. 

It wasn’t about the hurt and the fears. It wasn’t about how you broke my heart or how I wish our future will be like.

It was about the end to all that and about something great for us — individually. So I really hope you found what you are looking for, and I hope you have everything that will make you happy, because I believe I have. 

I found forgiveness and peace. I found comfort and happiness. I found simplicity in life that I could’ve missed out on if I didn’t let you go. I found love. I found bliss. 

I will always have you (the good and the bad) to thank for that.”

I wrote it when I started to feel at peace again. It may have been a long way since my heart got broken, but I remember distinctly when I arrived at that point.

I remember exactly how I felt when I wrote this with utmost sincerity in my heart. And somehow, standing where I am today, it gave me hope.

One day, someday, I will feel this peace again. The sadness I am feeling will go away, and I will be whole again.

After a While…

… you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child, and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure… that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.

— Veronica A. Shoffstall

Tips for Grieving After a Breakup

Came across this while browsing the web. Thank you, http://www.helpguide.org. 🙂 Maybe it’s time I read this daily. 

 

  • Don’t fight your feelings – It’s normal to have lots of ups and downs, and feel many conflicting emotions, including anger, resentment, sadness, relief, fear, and confusion. It’s important to identify and acknowledge these feelings. While these emotions will often be painful, trying to suppress or ignore them will only prolong the grieving process.
  • Talk about how you’re feeling – Even if it is difficult for you to talk about your feelings with other people, it is very important to find a way to do so when you are grieving. Knowing that others are aware of your feelings will make you feel less alone with your pain and will help you heal. Journaling can also be a helpful outlet for your feelings.
  • Remember that moving on is the end goal – Expressing your feelings will liberate you in a way, but it is important not to dwell on the negative feelings or to over-analyze the situation. Getting stuck in hurtful feelings like blame, anger, and resentment will rob you of valuable energy and prevent you from healing and moving forward.
  • Remind yourself that you still have a future – When you commit to another person, you create many hopes and dreams. It’s hard to let these dreams go. As you grieve the loss of the future you once envisioned, be encouraged by the fact that new hopes and dreams will eventually replace your old ones.
  • Know the difference between a normal reaction to a breakup and depression – Grief can be paralyzing after a breakup, but after a while, the sadness begins to lift. Day by day, and little by little, you start moving on. However, if you don’t feel any forward momentum, you may be suffering from depression.

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New Age Resolutions

It’s not the first time I spent the New Year’s on my bed, waiting for the clock to strike twelve and then go back to sleep. Believe me, it’s not as bad as it sounds – it’s actually very peaceful and has given me time to pray and recall the highlights, both ups and downs of my past year: the travels (Bohol, Donsol, Legazpi, Sorsogon, Bangkok, Misibis, and Caramoan), the attempts to diet and exercise (yes, attempts meant my trials and failures), finally giving golf a try and falling in love with it slowly and surely, helping out plan and implement three of my closest friends’ weddings while simultaneously being a bridesmaid and a maid of honor, finding new reasons to be passionate about my work, and learning once again how to exist in and survive in a long distance relationship as RGR had to leave to study his masters abroad.

 

Generally, 2012 has been good to me. I just know that I need to step it up another notch this 2013. I’m 28 and in two years I will be hitting the big 3-0, and although I am happy where I am now, I need to keep on going to be where I want to be when I reach that age. This is not just professionally and financially, but also on my emotional and spiritual level.

 

Last year, I learned that in lieu of New Year’s Resolutions, it’s so much easier to summarize one’s goals in just one word. A word that will serve as a mantra of some sort. Last year, mine was CENTER. Last 2011, I felt that I tried so hard to do everything and didn’t learn when and how to stop, that it exhausted me so much. It was so hard to be perfect and please everyone around me. I got hurt at the smallest remarks, even though I shouldn’t. So when 2012 came, I promised myself that I will just work from my own center – the core of my being, and not rely on the criticisms and praises of the people around me. This helped me focus on what matters, and helped me find the right amount of passion I should be investing in every project I got myself into. It also made it easier for me to forgive myself in the small boo boos that I made, knowing that I gave it my best shot. I was no longer a slave to anything or anyone.

 

This year, I would like to focus on three words: NEAT, FIT and LIGHT.

Neat – I’m not particularly vain. I don’t like wearing tons of makeup, and there are days when I just pull whatever from my closet and wear it to work. I guess when I gained weight, I also lost that teeny tiny bit of interest in dressing up or fixing myself. I don’t think I look like a mess, not most of the time. But it’s not only once that I’ve heard how attractive I can be if only I just learn how to fix myself. Again, I am not particularly vain. I don’t want to be a beauty queen but I want to look neat and smart – all the time. Not just sometimes. I’m finally growing up. Yay! 

Fit – Of  my 28 years of existence, this is my heaviest. Seriously. And I’m talking about a 25-lb difference in a span of 3 years. As time passes, I really feel that my metabolism is becoming slower and slower. Not only that, I have consumed my 15-day sick leaves at work! All of them! Extra effort is needed, and it’s not just to lose weight, but to be fit and healthy. So this year, I would like to be fit. Nothing too drastic, but gradual changes can be done so I can be at my prime.

Light – Being a control-freak has some disadvantages – when things don’t go your way you end up with a heavy heart. But life’s too short to cry over things that don’t matter much, and this year, I would like to feel light about everything that life throws at me – enjoy the good things and face the bad things.

Neat, Fit, Light. Neat, Fit, Light. Neat, Fit Light.  2013 is going to be another awesome year. 🙂

 

My Father, My Hero

In the light of the painful demise of Secretary Robredo, I remembered my own father.  I can only imagine the pain of losing a father, who, despite the busy schedule, is hands on with his kids.

My Dad celebrated his 61st Birthday last August 10th. Wow. 61st. How time flies so fast. Although we didn’t get to celebrate together as we’re miles apart, I thank God for the wonders of technology that I am able to hear and see him regularly. We talk and laugh the way we always do, not minding the distance between us. I think more than anything, the painful distance strengthened us as individuals and as a family. I looked at my dad, not looking quite like his age, but still looking very learned and wise. He’s been my superhero all along. I remembered the some of the lessons he has, time and again, told us, to live by –

  • Do everything and give everything to your parents – someday your kids will do the same with you.
  • You’ll see a person’s character by the way he treats his subordinates, and not his bosses.

  • Be your partner’s best friend. It’s the only way you won’t fall out of love.
  • You’ll know how a man will treat you by the way he treats his mother.
  • Live your life in a way that when one speaks evil of you, no one will believe them.
  • You can’t put a good man down.

 

Thank you, Papa. Through our lives’ ups and downs, you have been our steady rock. Thank you for loving Mama unconditionally, since you were 15. Thank you for letting everything go just to make sure we’ll have everything we need and want– you have more than moved mountains for us. Thank you for these life lessons which, I pray, shaped us. Thank you for arming us with values that will help us face the real world.

I love you Papa! Always and forever will be your girl.